The night before, had a mini gathering at the kitchen downstairs to chill. i just wanted to go down to be there with my friends on the eve of my 21st. though they had drank and apparently, gamble too. WHY OH WHY. even on the eve of my 21st! i feel so left out sitting in one corner. does anyone even notice. why cant we do activities that I can join in. come on, at least on my 21st. ok fine all grown up already and will only touch those 'type' of activities. sigh. so i sought attention from my dearest loveliest primary and secondary cliques via whatsapp, while sitting at a corner feeling awkward and cant believe it is my birthday. and i mean, my day. so after some thoughts, i decided to head back up and chill by my own dear self in my own room while they continued gamble. chatted with fitri over skype. had some bitching session lol. at that time, i truly feel it. finally the feeling came to me. i confirm this. i am homesick. i am certain about it. for the pass 5...6 months i've been here, i cant be certain that i am homesick. but being so left out always and all these things here, i miss home. i miss my family. i miss my primary friends. i miss my secondary friends. i miss my home cooked food. i miss my grannys cooked food. i miss my bibik. i miss home. negative thoughts corroding my mind. i was feeling down and rather gloomy last throughout the night. managed to skype with my family at like 4.30am uk time. i felt abit better. i only went to sleep at 5-ish am.

had a good sleep. the first thing that came to my mind was - good heavy breakfast! to cheer me up. got off bed at 10-ish am after lazing for quite some time. my forte - laze! had baked beans, toast breads and sunny side up! it felt so like home. because bibik always prepare this as the family's heavy breakfast. did some work after which. then, came down to sarah's room intending to take some muffins up and take her tutorial notes. ended up chilling there for some good time. got my present from my poly clique! was quite surprised to see a bag full of.....junks. haha good junks that is. the small snacks that i like. a whole lot of them packed in a bag. i was like.... a bag of goodies for my 21st. lol. laid all out on the floor to take a picture hahahaha. shall note how long it'll all last. but hey wahlao are they making me fat or what man. nonetheless, i am already is fat. i sizzly need to get my lazy ass out, in the cold, to jog. i must stop being a lazy cow. i really am fat already. so sad.

really appreciate my close relatives wishing me over whatsapp. miss them being here while they visited me end last year. skyped with dad and lil bro too. talked nonsense with lil bro as usual. our convo must always have some no sense contents.

only had strawberries, muffins and half a cup of bubble tea for lunch. headed off at 6pm for dinner at an-najeeb with the usuals minus cherrie. sigh why not full attendance. had a few dishes shared among us. better that way. shared the costs so each paid a small amount. after which, head over to madisons for desserts. had oreo cookies plus some mint chocolate milkshake. quite nice. apparently the 'cake' that came was very lol. the waiter came by with 1 waffle on a plate and put on the table. he then poked in 1 small candle in the waffle. and then, he lighted it up. i was errrr so funny. hahaha so unexpected. but they girls told me they informed them to put the candle on some milkshake but apparently they screwed it up. ok oh wells lah. lol. their service this time is super disappointing! terrible. waited for so long to be served and whats served is not worth the wait. sigh. oh and uhmm no card? alahhhh i was expecting something,... a card. so i can put it up on my wall. oh wells la. cabbed back home after that and soon later, there goes MY DAY. nothing special la. why people keep making '21st' as a huge ass thing.