tell me bout it

A lot of things have been going on since i last blogged. i prolly wouldn't be blogging this right now if not for the sake of ranting out my anger.

so holidays are here and hence, i started hunting for a part-time job after my last paper. it would be easier to find a part-time job if i could commit more than a month. but i cannot work while studying. besides, i want to fill my time by gaining work experience and well, earn ka-chings at the same time. so when i found this flexible job, i was like, On. called up aishah to try out this job too. she was also, On. so we went to the interviews and job tranings. okay i bet ya'll will think this is out-of-the-norm kinda job if you were to ask me what job this is. truthfully in the beginning, my mindset was that this is not my cup of tea. also, i know my parents mindset are a no no to this. but with the things i know from the job, i am interested to try this out. i AM interested and want to gain this kind of experience. damn unfortunate, the problem lies on the huge important hurdle of the job. the first step of the job, that is. my parents.

before telling mom dad about this thing that i wish to deal with, i already know they will hesitate in allowing me to do it. but whatever it is, it is the first step of this job so i heck what they will think and told them about it and seek for their approval and support. then it was like dammit. it hit me hard. they were so against this and nag nag nag. i stood there like, oh damn that's it. so really i was crushed and told myself, okay quite this thing. and for the next few days i wasn't on talking terms with them. lol. then just now aishah had to come down for work. i was ofcourse already 95% gave up but just accompanied aishah. had to listen to some upper people to discuss our problems. end of the day, my spirit suddenly came back. i was like, okay i will go and face mom to seek approval, again. so before i type these out, i did.

shit ah. it was to no avail. dammit. i gathered all courage to talk to mom about this again and she dropped a bomb on me. she is so so so.... ugh lots of things in my mind right now. i didn't talk about this to dad again cos mom will influence dad. i am so sad right now lah. this calls for yet another awkward silence. dear folks, folks are suppose to support their child. i'm your child lah kay. alaahh i love you both lah still! but i don't like you right now.