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Deteriorated!

Finally, haz, shaz, ver and me had lunch with Miss Cynthia! it was goooood!

anyhow, i shall blog about my napfa test while waiting for my hair to dry.

So i had my napfa test just now. i did plan to train myself a few days before napfa day but thinking that i would most prolly might start my actual napfa with strain muscles, considering the much regrettable fact that i did not exercise for the past 3 years, i did no preparation.

i was pretty much confident that i could pass. i believed i could when i recalled my napfa results during secondary school. they're all good as i scored either gold or silver. but i did have doubts about my standing broad jump and sit and reach. i totally remembered that i only had problems with that two stations. so when i did all the five stations, i was glad that i passed all of them. yeay me. cos you know, 1 fail means all fail. hence the risk of failing 1, just 1, is THAT huge ass! so after passing all 5 stations, it's time for 2.4. honestly i don't doubt myself in this. i'm not even nervous when it comes to 2.4! i found myself starting at the way back of the lot of girls. damn. should have gone all the way to the front! i was positive that if i keep jogging non-stop, i could pass. so i did that. but how foolish of me to not keep in mind that my stamina definitely has deteriorated since i didn't exercise for 3 freaking years and i have gone unhealthier! i even ran without a looking at the time cos as i've mentioned, i was positive that if i jog non-stop, i could pass. hell no! when i sprtinted towards the finishing line, the damn guy told me 18 minutes already. i was like freakkkkkkkkkkk dammmiittttt! i should totally be smart to get a damn watch and keep track of the time! i freaking know i can pass it! c'mon mayne, i believe i can!!!!!

then i learned that my passed 5 stations are gone just because of 1 or 2 minutes of 2.4! freaking huge ass right?!?!?! how on earth can izyan fail her napfa?!!! i totally judge my stamina and my health! i am so sad right now! :'(

and i foolishly told my elder bro about it. how dumb am i? i'm already feeling pissed with myself yet he totally rub it in and i felt damn dissapointed with myself. that elder bro ahhh...really cannot be relied upon to make me feel better even a bit! i hope he goes NS pronto and get the angstiest sirs!