The whole thing was epic. I joined with a high level of uncertainty. but still gave myself a chance. no hey. in fact, i gave myself chances. cos my determination level fluctuated throughout the whole journey. close to the end of my that journey, it just decreased. and continues to decrease to a very low level. since then, it never went up. that's when i've decided. to leave for i know it's not gonna work, for me. top of everything, life lesson learnt. ignoring, all shits.